At age 77, I am beginning to feel the urge to look back over my life and ask, what was that all about? I enjoy re-reading the thoughts I have assembled from my journals over the last 20 years or so, and I feel that they contribute something to thinking about music, and to a larger conversation about aesthetics and the role of the artist. As my philosopher friend Andrew said to me many years ago, it is the questions that remain interesting, not so much the answers. Below is a pdf file.